Jeremiah-Running with Horses

I want to grow. I want to build my capacity. I want to run with horses.

The chat this morning jolted me back into reality and it led me to think how mature I as a person and in Christ.

We as Man do things within our capacity and ability yet we get worn out, tired and offended; we complain, grumble about our leaders and have frequent relational conflicts with others. In the book of Jeremiah, running horses is the metaphorical expression of challenging ourselves, where we must grow and develop the whole of us as God wants all our capacities to be whole and blameless by building on our physical capacity, mental capacity, emotional capacity, will-volitional capacity and spiritual capacity.

Mental capacity is our thinking and cognitivity, our world of thoughts, ideas, propositions, suggestions, etc.
I have realy big problems applying knowledge and understanding to wisdom. So much that sometimes it makes me like a kid in a 20-year-old body. The filter in my mind doesn’t work as well as some of my friends’; I blabber my thoughts like a birdbrain. I hate this. I hate how I am socially awkward for I don’t know how to start conversation with a stranger. I hate how I couldn’t understand what some of my friends are talking about because I don’t seem to have the ability to move from knowledge to understanding to wisdom. I hate how even though sometimes I have understood, I don’t seem to have wisdom to respond and decide; it’s just not a faculty of me to know how and what to do next. I yearn very much for my mind to think like my more mature friends, to have working filters within my mind.

Apart from that, there’s the will-volitional capacity, which is the culmination of our minds and emotions-making an enlightened decision.

There’s so much to learn and work on. I want to grow spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally and also to build on my will-volitional capacity. I feel so small, so imperfect.  During the conversation these morning, these words hit me hard in the face ‘I feel now is the time where we both need to be away from each other to grow by ourselves, to learn how to be independent.’ But I’m really thankful someone out there actually cared to tell me all these, to remind me that I’m turning 20 this year.

SP Daniel shared with us that there’s a church in Australia that came up with challenges for the people and also mine for 2012:
1. Increase your givings
2. Serve and give yourself to a cause
3. Pray for the nation and world
4. Read the bible in a year
5. Go for a mission trip

I’ve decided to renew my mind; my thought life to be surrended to God, my life to be centered around God, so I’ve deleted my childish posts of the past. I want to grow up and I will put childish ways behind me. (1 Cor 13:11)

May my new year be a really fruitful one

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